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WAR STALKS ME

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War stalks me

It comes to me every day.

Crushing images consume my mind.

I tremble, silent screams fill my mind

I’m there

Each bullet engraved with the name of a friend.

Today, tomorrow

One will bear my name

I long for hearth and home,

Before that time draws near.

The war it is over they say

It stalks me

Dead faces,

Walk through my grieving soul.

My senses trick me,

Am I here or there still?

Sometimes it’s remembered

Booming gunfire bombing shells

Faceless men

Marching feet

Legless beggars in the street

Vacant faces

Whiskey foul breath

Who can blame them?

They have seen,

The Devil’s hand,

Shred men limb by limb

They fear for their immortal souls

And the strident cries

“No more war.”

Flag draped coffins

Raised high in glory

Piper’s last lamented story.

With heavy hearts and halting strides

Borne to final resting ground

Some days I wish that it was I

No more…the war is over its said

Until the next time I say

It’s there … Stalking…waiting…patiently

Gemma Hill

updated June 2024

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Carefully, we walk the invisible line

Certain places and times

We avidly avoid

Don’t say that

Don’t mention that there

Today I am William Tomorrow I’m Liam

Depending on the area, street or lane

 

We share a lot you and I

We bandage our wounded

We tend to our dead

We allow other people to speak in our name

Until we are riddled with

With rumour and fear

Don’t ever forget where

We have been

And say “not in my name”

We’re not going back there again

 

 

 

 

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The Fall of the Leaf

The Fall of the Leaf

The Fall of the Leaf

Orange gold and brown dance playfully

Take a fluttering bow

Curling edges like praying fingertips

Carpet the ground

Crunch beneath my feet

 

Shiny brown conkers

Peep out from a bed of leaves

Transport me back

Gathered conkers in the chapel grounds

Ripened to a hard golden brown

Tangled twine threaded

Knotted drawn in

Let battle begin

 

Oh the delight

To tread amongst the golden leaves

 

Of yellow sand reds in the underside

Feet lost in autumn’s colour scheme

 

My heart sings

The cold air kisses my cheeks

I open my arms, twirl

Lift my face

Thank God to be alive.

Gemma Hill November 2022 ©

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Be The Best Me

Be the best me

Shred the scales of others views

Spoken or implied

Be the best me

Hold my view of who

I believe myself to be

 

 

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A Bed For The night

A Bed For The Night

A wee stayover in Donegal Town – Kathleen was home on holiday from Perth in WA. We decided to have a few days’ away – girls only – Gertie, Kathleen, Helen and Yours Truly – in Donegal Town Co Donegal.  I was under the usual threats – No book shops.  DEF no shoe shops.  And top of the ‘DONTS “don’t be encouraging complete strangers to tell me their life stories.”

Well, I never was a very obedient child – many a day I felt the swish  coming off the ‘sally rod’ our mother kept behind the ornamental china dog with the hole in its head on the mantelpiece as I flew like the wind out of her reach and the stinging rod on the backs of my legs.

We had a large family hotel room. Four beds in a row – like Goldie Locks and the 3 Bears.  Like Goldie, while the others were checking out the bathroom – shower or bath? – I tried out the beds. Bed number one was a no-no – too near the bathroom –Kathleen, Helen and Gertie would have to pass it during the night if they needed to go.

Bed 2   was in the middle between bed 1 and 3 (as it would be) – . Not a good position to be – every time I’d turn I’d be looking into either a face or an ass…you get the picture!

Bed 3 was further from the toilet but nearer the window. I bounced on bed number 4.  I knew it was the one – last in the row – nearest the window. If there was a-stirring in the night or a queue for the bathroom it would not have to pass my bed.

Next stop check out the foyer, the night’s entertainment and the dining room menu.

Everything was going according to plan until we emerged from having something to eat and decided to relax for a while on the cushy squishy armchairs in the foyer.  As we settle in,the glass door of the hotel opened and in struggled a woman weighted down with an assortment of handbags and an eclectic collection of other types of baggage.  Immediately my curiosity was piqued.  Had she just got off one of the many tour buses sporting Dutch, American, Irish, English and Scottish named coaches parked outside in the street

Hmm. Where had she come from and where was she going to next?  My antenna was well and truly up now.

The staff hailed her by name as if she was a regular. So, she hadn’t come on the tourist buses?

 

Kathleen and Gertie were looking relaxed and discussing the pro and cons of what we had just eaten. Helen was working her way out of her deep cushioned chair with the intention of going out for a smoke.

The woman who had just come in promptly sank gratefully into Helen’s seat; her bag, baggage settling in a semi-circle around her feet.

Of its own accord I heard my voice ask her had she come far just as a pleasant face staff member placed a beautifully laid tea tray on the table at the woman’s elbow.  My antenna was emitting loud bleeps of interest. Who was she?  I had to know more about her. As she poured tea into the fine white bone china cup and scooped in three spoons of sugar and topped it up with a generous splash of rich full throttle cream I noticed her cardigan was clean but shabby and her shoes were more for country wear than town wear.

Surreptitiously I chanced a quick glance of my sisters.  They were still deep in conversation with each other. I tried and failed to push down my rampaging imagination.  Flinging caution to the wind I smiled at the woman and offered to refill her white teacup.  That was all it took. Without preamble the woman began to tell me her life story. ..

Her story is not mine to tell. Sufficient to say she entrusted her most precious child to the authorities on a temporary basis on the advice of a politician she trusted and was almost destitute because all her monies had been spent paying solicitors fighting to get her much loved child back.

I left her there sipping her tea from the delicate china cup. My sisters had long gone fed-up with waiting for me and Helen, sitting opposite me, was ready for another smoke.

We found Kathleen and Gertie in a crowded, noisy put at the bottom of the street.  The thump of traditional Irish music blasted through the open window and door and into the street making the windows rattle.

We pushed our way inside. There was standing room only and barely enough space to raise the glass to your mouth or clap your hands to show your appreciation for the many singers and fiddlers.

We had a great night. At closing time we made our way back to the hotel planning what we were going to do the next day.  My plan was to visit the shoe shops.

The foyer of the hotel was quiet. The chair empty where the woman had sat finishing the dregs of her tea surrounded with her many bags.

As we waited for the elevator I wondered where she was sleeping tonight. My fussing about being disturbed as the others went to the toilet seemingly of no importance now.

 

Gemma Hill © December 2020

 

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A Poem for My Mother

 

A Poem For My Mother

 

I think of you at the oddest moments.

In the brightness of a sunny day

In the smell of a teapot left to brew

In the tilt of a woman’s head

But most of all I think of you

When I see a woman with a

Pleased smile wearing a red coat

I think about the day we went into town

You tried on the coat

And said,” What does an old woman like me

Need a fancy red coat for?” You straightened your

Back stooped with age, hard work and Parkinson’s

Squared your shoulders  Fingered the

Quality of the collar stroked the buttons

And stood proud and smiling at

Your reflection in the full-length mirror

Your smile conveyed the message

I’ve arrived. I’m a bona fide person, family reared

The red coat signified your reward.

Oh how you loved that red coat

It was the hardest thing to part with after you died

I think of you when we gather together, to celebrate,

To laugh and sing as you did despite the lack of

Luxuries in your life

I wonder did I ever think to thank you

For all the times you saved me from myself

For sharing my achievements

And soothing the pain of a first

Lost love

I think about the times I caused you

Grief and wonder did you know how much

You were appreciated and loved.

Gemma Hill ©

 

 

 

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Paying By Plastic

 

Paying By Plastic

“It’ll have to be the card,” I said fumbling the strip of brightly coloured card out of my purse and into the card machine hoping I can remember the right combination of numbers.

Ever careful of the scammers I shield the keypad with my hand. ” Do you want any money back?” asked the young shop assistant with an air of expectation, his hand hovering over the till. I nod eagerly my thoughts already on the sale that is on in Pound Stretcher. “Penny wise, pound foolish” came to mind. But I knew I was going to buy some gadget I could do without before I went home.

Leaving the supermarket and heading for Railway Road I started to think about all the things the stupid plastic card couldn’t do.

I passed the Ally Theatre building where the public toilets used to be; Gents to your right, near the Derry/Letterkenny bus stop with its cafey. If the bus was held up by roadworks or a traffic diversion because there was cattle or ‘something’ on the road, there was the chance of a quick cup of tea and a cream bun. The Ladies toilets were to the left opposite Miss Wrights Department Store – which I loved frequenting to try on the fancy hats in front of the wall of mirrors upstairs.

I thought how useless the plastic would have been back in the day. If I was ‘dying’ for the toilet it wouldn’t let me, ‘spend a penny. I’d need a penny to put in the slot. The best I could hope for was that the eagle eyed woman minding the toilets didn’t usher me out with her mop before somebody came out of a toilet and let you slip in for free.

As I walked on pulling my few bits of shopping in my wee shopping trolley heading for the Library I passed a knot of people waving flags and chorusing something about the cost of living. Tell me about it, I  thought. Wait until you have worked all your life and can’t afford to turn on the heating or put an extra bit of coal on the fire. Passing them I amused myself by thinking about the perplexed look that would come over their faces if I stopped, waved my plastic card and announced,” I haven’t two ha’pennies  to rub together but a penny for your thoughts on the Election”

Or what if I nudged our Joe in Charlie’s bar in Castle Street opposite the old Strabane Post Office and muttered out of the corner of my mouth,” See that bad penny has turned up again. I’d buy her a drink except it’s only the oul plastic I have with me.”

I took a walk around the charity shops as I am won’t to do. There was room in my shopping trolley for a second hand book or two. I had learned my lesson during Covid. It’s good time filler when you have a good book to read. And I’d be doing my ‘pennysworth’ for charity.

There was a woman there looking at a lovely old clock. “That must’ve have been worth a bob or two in its day, “she said to her companion.

Her friend nodded. “Aye, you’re right. You’d be ‘quids in’ if you could resell that on Strabane Sell It on Facebook.”

“Does it keep the time? And does it still chime, “the first woman asked the woman behind the counter volunteering her services free of charge.

The volunteer confirmed that as far as she knew the clock worked “It’s for charity. You pay your money and take your chance,” she said cheerfully.

The penny dropped. The two women looked at each other. The charity shop didn’t take the plastic cards.

“Ach, well, as my Ma says,” the two friends said in unison,” Look after the pennies and the pounds will look after themselves.”

Gemma Hill May 2022 ©

 

 

 

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The Art of wordless Love

The Art of wordless Love

Artist Cara Hill 2121

Artwork sells for millions

Not mine

It’s worth much much more

My painting

Ballymastoker  Beach created

With wordless strokes

Of love

Above my desk it stands

Pride of place

Memories wrap their arms around me

The artist and I

Sandy sandwiches for me

Biscuits and juice for her

Forbidden sweeties – bad for her teeth

Blue sky above us

Golden sand underfoot softly misting

Waving grass shading the shore

I read

Write a poem

Cara  makes Angel Wings in the sand

Runs to the sea sweeping in

Dips a pink bucket

Makes mud pies

For the Angels’ tea

 

Gemma Hill 2021 ©A

 

 

 

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Don’t Come Home for Christmas Son

Don’t Come Home for Christmas Son

Oh how I’d love to be encircled in your arms.

Feel your bristly face against my cheek

I Pray

Stay away! Stay away this Christmas time

 

Covid is wearing an ecstatic beam

Grinning from ear to ear

Rubbing its hands together in hilarity

 

Your presence at the dinner table

The best Christmas present it will receive in 2020

A fresh nose, throat and lungs to inhabit

A Courier

To dispatch the deadly pandemic to me and others

What an amazing present for killer Covid this festive season

A gift that will keep giving

Long after the spirit of Christmas has been buried

 

Oh how I’d love to be encircled in your arms

Feel your bristly face against mime

I pray

Stay away! Stay away this Christmas time

Vaccines’ frontlines’ will bravely provide

Covid will submit, succumb,

Face its demise

 

I pray my son

Don’t come home this Christmas time

Plan for 2021

When wonderful wander lust

Will carry you safely home to me

With beating heart I will watch the taxi pull in the drive

Your warm hug will be pure gold

We will be safe together again

Still alive

Gemma Hill  copyright Dec 2020

 

 

 

 

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Sisters Always

Sisters Always

I saw a white flower in bloom today

It made me think of you

Your anniversary

Four years passed since we lay

You to rest

Covid smirked at my distress

I knew I’d have to wait to place it on your grave

In Murlog Cemetery

I will at the first opportunity

Rest easy until I get to see you

Your sister Gemma xx

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For Those Who Walk With us

Poem Credit Jan Richardson

For those
who walked with us
this is a prayer.

For those
who have gone ahead,
this is a blessing.

For those
who touched and tended us,
who lingered with us
while they lived,
this is a thanksgiving.

For those
who journey still with us
in the shadows of awareness,
in the crevices of memory,
in the landscape of our dreams,
this is a benediction.

Jan Richardson

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